Hello May!~

01.05.2015~ 

At this moment at 4 a.m. in the morning, i still cant sleep... i'm super duper tired but eyes just cant close and enjoy the night... am i nervous? Its about 2 weeks from now counting days to deliver our beloved 3rd son, insyaAllah... but doctor review said that it might be earlier from the EDD... 

Tonite was adventurous when the brixton hicks started from 10++ pm until 2 a.m. ++ close to 3 a.m. already set in mind that maybe today is the day... but still im praying its not the day yet because im mentally not prepared hahah neither physically i think... the house is not ready, the stuffs are not ready (few things to buy) 

More than that im worried about the big boys... what will happen to them when im not around, is my husband capable to handle both of them? I think its a relief also when tonite both so cranky hanging around me and husband took both and put them to sleep... husband told me to sleep in another room, both boys slept with him, alhamdulillah... when i sneak into the room,i saw the little boy sleep well... =) good job, husband... at least i know they will be okay if im not around later... 

Well, im praying for a better journey in May... the business is not so good in April, its really a difficult month when the nett income is very low... maybe it is one of the reason i cant sleep tonite hahah too much thinking about income money savings... its all about financial... maybe i should start to learn more about business... there are people out there really lucky, start up their business in a very easy journey... but not for me... after a year, im still crawling to survive... but thank you Allah for all the "rezeki" that i have since we moved to KK... 

Please... please pray for me that i will deliver this little boy on my EDD... i need to settle lots of things before i go for this delivery... despite how much i want to deliver this baby soon (i had enough of this backache and all the pregnancy stuffs) i think i still need to settle few things before deliver the baby... being a working at home mom which handling my own small so called business, i need to make sure everything will run well during my confinement period... 

I reviewed few IGs of the famous so called celebrity who run out their own business such as vivy yusof (owner of duckscarves) , jezmine blossom (co founder of blossom box store) and few others, there are very productive during the confinement period, still monitoring the business etc... lucky them becoz they rich enough and they have lots of staffs to take care all the things in the office... hehe for me, im just a homebaker, which everything is handle by myself all alone... so, juz pray for it! hehe 

Maybe i should try to sleep...the body need rest... last but not least, happy labour day to all of you out there... take a rest and chill out.... dont think about your work for a day only even though you love your job so much ;p 

till then~ xoxo 

i love my family so much =)