Long lost update?

23.05.2015~

With two kids you feel like you are fully occupied? Wait until you have three! hahaha Dulu masa anak sorang pun suam2 kuku trus x update blog, when it was two, langsung x update, what do you expect when you have three? 

Seriously now i understand how's the feeling of having "tangan sotong"! Penat x yah ckp la kan, dh sorang, sorang plak nangis, dah settle sorang, buat perangai lagi sorg, gitu la kesudah tiap2 hari... there goes my baking schedule... makin lama makin kelaut... but still need to restock at the boutiques and fulfill self ordered to me... 

But, somewhere somehow i really relief with baby Luzman... sebab sgt2 behave... which remind me of Luqman masa baby dlu... less cranky, easy to handle, very tolerant.. alhamdulillah... 

There are times that i really stressed out... which at that point i wish to go back to kl and back to routine as a career woman and mother. Dengan menjadi seorang ibu yang berkerjaya akan memberikan sedikit "ME TIME" for me... 24 by 7 with kids kadang2 sangat membunuh jiwa... bukan x sayang anak tapi ada masa nya tahap kesabaran sangat2 teruji...

Pada masa mcm ni la, i need to have lower EXPECTATION. In what sense? EVERYTHING! Rumah sepah, mandi x sempat nk basah, makan x sempat nak kenyang, x sempat nak rehat, x sempat nak membaca... name it-ALL IN the PACKAGE~

Orang salu cakap kan, once husband balik, everything will be ok... once again, dont HOPE too much... (p/s: Husband, this is why i always mad at you every time you fall asleep) coz i wish i have times to do my works without the kids... with all the crying, fighting etc, sometimes i want to be free from all of this.. it's not that i dont love my kids, i love them so much... more than u do, coz i can be patient for all day without rest with them...

Now no more SPA-ing time, SCRUB-bing time, MASK-ing time (all inclusive in ME TIME)... nk gosok gigi, mandi and pakai baju pun anak dh menangis bergolek2 depan toilet...

If i have a GENIE who can grant me a WISH, i just wish for ME TIME... i really need it...

OH... how i WISH....

May Allah ease the journey of raising my boys, whatever it is, i love all of you... 

Till then ~ xoxo